ARE RELATIONSHIPS REALLY NECESSARY?

You know what I really pray for you over? That whatever you're in right now calling a "relationship" doesn't become the only one you get to experience before you decide to settle down in life. I mean, are this even relationships? They are more of experiments than actual relationships cause what they always consist of is you checking who texted last, who called last, who paid for what last, food, electricity bill bla bla bla.... I just want you to fucking experience love. Like someone who genuinely likes you for you and not what you do for them. 

You know I'm still in school so I get to interact and see a lot of things and learn. What I see most of my guys on there hanging onto, even as a corpse😂 I wouldn't find myself in. And you'd be really puzzled finding out what keeps them there. The need to belong. The need to fit in. The need to feel loved. Bro, I just wish you get a girl that loves you. You'll learn to value yourself more. You won't have to do all those foolish things just for sex. I pray you get loved bro. 

I've been around girls bruised, hearts stepped on to paste by some nigga but they're just there having to coax love out of a boy. Trying to sanitize rejection with "all men cheat" "as long as he comes back to me... I'm aight"....They've become expert miners. Trying to mine love where there's nothing. Nothing that is near the word love. I hope you get to be loved by someone who doesn't need reminding. 

And when you don't get that love we all crave for, I just hope you atleast get that courage to leave. Leave that bitch bro. Leave that dumb nigga sis. You deserve better. I hope you don't find yourself having some foolish thoughts, telling yourself stuff like "If she/he cheats, we cheat.... " like, fuck it. How do you dish out your dignity, slice by slice trying to get back at someone? Someone you just met? That's a competition of fools. A brothel of trauma. You'll find grace. Learn to leave people behind. Love yourself a little bit more. You'll fucking be okay. Most of y'all survived over 18 years single. Why waste the peak of your youth stressing over something that isn't a necessity? LEARN TO LEAVE PEOPLE BEHIND. 

You ever looked at a friends relationship and was like,  "Huyu mbona anjichukia hivi lakini? " 

The insults. 

The embarrassment. 

The violence. 

All I wanna ask is "WHY ARE YOU AFRAID OF BEING ALONE? "